Stress
My son is leaving for the summer after an incredible trying school year. I love this kid more than life itself. I am very fortunate as he is a really good kid. He doesn't stay out past curfew, rarely talks back, does his chores when I remind him to, attends school, is kind to me and to others, and is a very caring person. I am proud of him in so many ways. I like the person he is. The issue is that he does his homework (most of it anyway) but he does not turn it in. I don't understand that. We are trying to get to the bottom of this issue, and in the last 2 weeks of school he really picked up the ball and did what needed to be done to salvage most of the school year, but I've gotta ask, "What's the deal with the homework?"
He is leaving on Friday for the summer with the Ex. I'm gonna miss him like wildfire, yet I am also looking forward to a few months of not having to be accountable to anyone but myself. If I decide to not eat dinner until 10pm, I can. If I decide to stay out until 1 in the morning, I don't have to check in. No groceries in the house? No problem. I hate when he is gone, but I relish the time as well. Weird.
I am buying a house! My first house. It is in the exact location I wanted, and it is perfect for Edward and I. It needs some work, but that work is going to keep me busy this summer, so maybe I won't miss the kid so much. I always end up in a bit of a funk when he is gone if I have too much time on my hands. This summer, time on my hands is not going to be an issue. I am really excited about the house. Picking out flooring and paint colors and planning on where to put the furniture, etc is so much fun. I say that now... Wait til I get that paint roller in my hands. My tune might change. This is a good, positive move for me. But still stressful.
School is also in full swing. I tend to complain about it a lot, but I know I am dreading the ending of it. A year from now I will have my degree. But then what will I do with my time? I will be Angela Marie Christensen, RN, BSN, OCN(R), MBA, MHA - Guess I will spend my extra time writing all those initials after my name :-)
On the guy front - Who knows what is happening there. I get through the day, have many friends to support me, but that elusive partner is still at large. There is a potential partner out there, but we are in such different places. For now, I have a friend. STRESS!!!
My heart is doing this strange pitter pattering. My Dr doesn't seem too worried, but he is sending me to a specialist. He thinks I have a hereditary condition (that no one else in my family seems to have)... But time will tell. More silly stress.
Good things in my world, but they sure are stressful. That's ok. It means I am living!
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