Transitioning

I am a new person. 2010 is my year to decide who I am and where I am going. It is a bit frightening and a bit exhilarating all at the same time. I get to reinvent ME.

So, now I look at living the moment for what it is. Who will I include into the new me? I am finding it difficult to discover that sometimes the people I want in my life are also transitioning, but are in a different phase of that process. I am free to do and be whatever I want, and others are not there yet, but I find I want them in my life. So perhaps part of this lesson will be patience. Part of this lesson will be to discover that I can't always have what I want.

That is hard for me. I have always been someone that saw what she wanted and moved heaven and earth to get it. I can fix things. I can make things happen. But I am finding that this isn't always true and that frustrates me.

It is kind of fun to meet new people; people that never knew me as Angela Wieske. People that only know me as Angela Christensen. Obviously they know that I was married and have a child. I am too open with who I am and where I came from to not let that be known. But to be identified as only Angela Christensen is great! I like feeling like me again instead of 1/2 of an US.

I think I've decided that I will never be married again. I do not need societies approval of any relationship I chose to enter. IF the day comes that I do chose to legally be bound to another, I will certainly keep my name. I like Angela Christensen. Good name. Good person.

I am one hell of a woman; a fierce friend and loyal companion. Some things about me will never change as it is just a part of my personal makeup. It is because of how I was raised that I am the way I am. But some things may change.

Changes:
I will no longer be a doormat
I will ask for what I want
I will surround myself with people that see ME
I will be loyal to myself then to others
I will take priority

Transitioning... 2010, here I come!