Say it!
I am thinking back on the people that were a huge part of my life and for one reason or another are no longer in my world. Anyone that knows me is aware that I am somewhat guarded and I do not tend to let people into my heart easily, but once I do, they are allowed to take up residency and live there til the end of time. Here's to you, my friends that have left my daily life, but not my heart.
Mom - I know few women who can honestly say that their mother was their best friend. You were my confidant and my cheerleader. You listened without judgement and supported me, even when you knew I was making a mistake. We could "just be" with each other. You taught me how to be a lady, gave me the ideal role model to become a mother and always told me that there wasn't anything I couldn't do if I set my mind to it. Your unrelenting belief in me, as a person, has made me the incredibly loving, loyal and supportive human being that I am today. I honor you with every friendship I make. I hope one day to be half the woman that you were. Your strength in the face of adversity has always made me proud. I would give up 5 years of my life to have one more cup of tea with you. I remain your "Lemonade Girl".
Jeffrey - You were my colorist. In a very dark period of my life, when all the beauty had gone out of living, you brought the brilliant reds, somber blues and verdant greens back to my eyes. We were marvelous friends, but also more than friends. When we met, we just clicked. Sure, it was a strange and labored relationship with complications galore, but you were a support of my life and I of yours. I loved you, and I love your family. I miss you and I miss them. Your smile could light up a room. You view of the world was always a little askew, which was your charm. You were taken from me way too soon, but I was blessed with your light and you saved me from a black and white existence. "Hey" Jeffrey... "Hey".
Chose - Yes, it sounds strange that I would include you here. Our relationship was "professional" but you touched my heart as no other patient ever did. I was at your side through diagnosis, surgery, recovery, rehabilitation, acceptance and your passing from this plane and I was honored to be by your side in your final moments. You were a lesson in grieving. Nurses try so hard to keep that professional detachment, but you, my friend, weaseled your way into my heart. I loved getting to know you, to hear your stories, and to aid in your care. I was honored with your friendship and will always feel blessed to be a part of your days. You had a very difficult life, your last days were lonely and I hope that I was able to ease a bit of that loneliness. Thank you for the lessons you taught me and for your tender presence. You will always be my "beacon of hope".
Bob, Rory, Seth and Ben - My comrades. We did the impossible. With no rule book, no guidance other than our hearts and no experience we made a difference in the lives of so many in a short 36 hour period. You were a part of my physical world for two weeks or less, but you will live in my heart until I cease to exist. We did something good. We truly made a difference in this world. It was not something we HAD to do, it was something we chose to do and our world became so much more vibrant for the experiences we shared. So few people really get the opportunity to make such a huge impact in so many people's lives. Gentlemen, I take my hat off to you, tell you now, in front of God and everyone that I love you and I feel absolutely blessed that Mother Nature's wrath brought us together. Our paths may never physically cross again, but you all have a piece of real estate in my heart.
No one ever reads my blog, so I have no idea why I am talking to this imaginary audience. Perhaps I put this in type as I send it mentally out to the universe and hope that others will hear my plea. The relationships that you cultivate and nurture are what make you rich. Your success is measured in the lives that you touch and the lives that touch yours. Cars and houses, trips and jewelry mean nothing in the end. How you impact another's heart is what makes you wealthy. Tell the people that reside in your heart how they make you richer.
Mom - I know few women who can honestly say that their mother was their best friend. You were my confidant and my cheerleader. You listened without judgement and supported me, even when you knew I was making a mistake. We could "just be" with each other. You taught me how to be a lady, gave me the ideal role model to become a mother and always told me that there wasn't anything I couldn't do if I set my mind to it. Your unrelenting belief in me, as a person, has made me the incredibly loving, loyal and supportive human being that I am today. I honor you with every friendship I make. I hope one day to be half the woman that you were. Your strength in the face of adversity has always made me proud. I would give up 5 years of my life to have one more cup of tea with you. I remain your "Lemonade Girl".
Jeffrey - You were my colorist. In a very dark period of my life, when all the beauty had gone out of living, you brought the brilliant reds, somber blues and verdant greens back to my eyes. We were marvelous friends, but also more than friends. When we met, we just clicked. Sure, it was a strange and labored relationship with complications galore, but you were a support of my life and I of yours. I loved you, and I love your family. I miss you and I miss them. Your smile could light up a room. You view of the world was always a little askew, which was your charm. You were taken from me way too soon, but I was blessed with your light and you saved me from a black and white existence. "Hey" Jeffrey... "Hey".
Chose - Yes, it sounds strange that I would include you here. Our relationship was "professional" but you touched my heart as no other patient ever did. I was at your side through diagnosis, surgery, recovery, rehabilitation, acceptance and your passing from this plane and I was honored to be by your side in your final moments. You were a lesson in grieving. Nurses try so hard to keep that professional detachment, but you, my friend, weaseled your way into my heart. I loved getting to know you, to hear your stories, and to aid in your care. I was honored with your friendship and will always feel blessed to be a part of your days. You had a very difficult life, your last days were lonely and I hope that I was able to ease a bit of that loneliness. Thank you for the lessons you taught me and for your tender presence. You will always be my "beacon of hope".
Bob, Rory, Seth and Ben - My comrades. We did the impossible. With no rule book, no guidance other than our hearts and no experience we made a difference in the lives of so many in a short 36 hour period. You were a part of my physical world for two weeks or less, but you will live in my heart until I cease to exist. We did something good. We truly made a difference in this world. It was not something we HAD to do, it was something we chose to do and our world became so much more vibrant for the experiences we shared. So few people really get the opportunity to make such a huge impact in so many people's lives. Gentlemen, I take my hat off to you, tell you now, in front of God and everyone that I love you and I feel absolutely blessed that Mother Nature's wrath brought us together. Our paths may never physically cross again, but you all have a piece of real estate in my heart.
No one ever reads my blog, so I have no idea why I am talking to this imaginary audience. Perhaps I put this in type as I send it mentally out to the universe and hope that others will hear my plea. The relationships that you cultivate and nurture are what make you rich. Your success is measured in the lives that you touch and the lives that touch yours. Cars and houses, trips and jewelry mean nothing in the end. How you impact another's heart is what makes you wealthy. Tell the people that reside in your heart how they make you richer.
posted by Angela | 13:04
1 Comments:
I read it and I think it is beautiful!
Post a Comment
<< Home