So long 2009

I have not blogged in a long long time. Not because I had nothing to say, but that I had nothing remotely positive to say. 2009 has not been a stellar year for me. It has been a year full of pain and strife, changes and challenges, sadness and tears.

I am Angela Marie Chirstensen again. Officially on December 3, 2009 my marriage was over. I look at that event sadly. Not because my Ex is no longer in my life, that is kind of a relief, but because I failed at marriage. I think it is sad that I feel this way, but I have learned a long time ago that feelings are not right or wrong, they just are. If I stop telling myself I am suppose to feel a specific way about a specific event, I find peace quicker.

Jeffrey passed away a month before my divorce was final. This has been a great loss in my life. I think I feel more pain over not having him in my life on a daily basis than my sadness over my failed marriage. He was my confidant and my friend. He is the type of friend that only comes along a few times in a life time, and that is if you are lucky.

I am adjusting to having to share my son, another thing about 2009 that has been difficult.

There are no eloquent words, no fancy weaving of nouns and verbs to say what I think about 2009. I am glad it is over. On to a brighter 2010.